User talk:ApexAgunomu

My talk page archive: https://publictestwiki.com/wiki/User_talk:ApexAgunomu/Archive1

I just want to say...

It seems like I will soon be community-banned from this wiki, which I must admit is not how I wanted things to end up here. I am sorry for all the disruption and lack of self-control I have shown and caused here, and I suppose maybe this upcoming extended break might be what's really best for both me and the community. I promise not to evade my ban using any extra accounts, and I hope that after awhile I can come back more mature and responsible, and rejoin this community again. ApexAgunomu (My changes here | Drop me a line) 23:25, 5 June 2022 (UTC)

My views on the Community Portal Discussion

I don't necessarily want to add this to the community portal discussion, but I want to say it somewhere. These are my thoughts on the discussion going on there.

I'm not sure I even understand what the issue is that's being brought up there. To me it seems like one day I was testing (and admittedly triggering the filter) so Rhinos gave me some reasonable expectations about how my behavior would need to change before I could be granted admin again (no triggering the filter and active editing for at least a week). I was fine with that. Admittedly I didn't really know what exactly to test because most of the pages in the special test pages category seem to be designed for people with admin privileges. So I experimented with adding some (admittedly nonsense) categories to some pages and then undoing those edits. And I did also use a swear word, which probably wasn't the best decision. Those edits were apparently seen as attempts to evade the filter, which to be honest they were because I didn't want to trigger the filter any more. And apparently that was enough to make everyone think that I should now be indefinitely blocked from this wiki. And to be bblunt, I don't understand how my actions warrant an indefinite block. Yes, I do need to show self-control and change my behavior to not trigger the filter, and I agree that is a reasonable expectation before I am granted admin or bureaucrat here. And yes, it would seem obvious that I should simply change my actions immediately and not make any more mistakes at all (though to be honest, I feel that I might still slip up once or twice). And I will do my best to do that. I just really hope I get the chance to show that. ApexAgunomu (My changes here | Drop me a line) 18:10, 6 June 2022 (UTC)